'YM'ing with Rosie this morning and she reminding me of Ash Wednesday next week... OMG, I fell like I was drifted far away already.. I realised I'm not a church goer since years ago.. By name, I'm a Christian follower but actually not a good Christian..
Have u ever have a situation when everything suddenly goes wrong.. That is what I experienced now... Doing good doesn't mean good things will happen to you (Karma).. I always think of why did those things happened to me? Why did God put me into situations that I never wanted? How much good deeds should I do untill God really hear things that treasured deep inside my soul..
Sometimes when I really caught into depression and confusion, I challenge God.. I asked Him why should me? Why not other peoples? Why did You do this to me? Untill one day I really promise to myself that if God didn't hear me, I'll surrender of Him....
At first, I didn't know why those things happened to me... After think rationally, I realised that I never pray to God.. I never ask God to be beside me.. I forgot that God is the One that I should be very thankful of all the happiness, healthiness and lifes that He gaves me.. I knew, it is just due to lack of praying... At last, I realised that I'm actually praying when I challenge Him so badly....
Lord, forgive me that I'm sinned..
Never ask God for only a big thing but do ask God for even a small thing..!! He will answer you.. Believe me...
